Dear love cost us
a guiding light
A Fate worse than death
My hypnosis is like a quantum bomb waiting to go off, it cant be stopped. John Sawyer is acting like a reprobate now. I drew the line with him when I thought he had me raped, he must have seen this as a sign of weakness in me because he started hypnotic sexual abuse and I have undoubtedly been raped now while under hypnosis, there is obvious evidence, it looks likes he wants to sexually mutilate me, this isn't muscle relaxation. I just think of how the girls I know who have faced this kind of thing and how I would want them to react, to deal with it, it helps.
I have been to Leeds university, I talked to a few people and got some business cards out. Phase one was getting my book up to scratch, phase two is setting my quantum bomb by letting too many people to be mind controlled know about what MI6 is doing. Sawyer is continuing to drug me, my shrinks try and make out they want to toughen me up so I can work with them; they are suppressing my emotions. When I desensitise to something they just keep doing it anyway. They just want someone who will be abused and not react so they can do worse. Along with this they are giving me the strong nerve toxin. I am trying to be careful but I keep getting spiked. I am starting to stumble and my body goes floppy, my right eye is sleepy and my doctors say they can't help, to quote poor doctor Christine 'I feel powerless to help you' but she does help she helps by caring.
I contacted the sun now I have my book up to date, I wanted them to read my book, it's become obvious they have been told something about me, they even put the phone down on me, maybe that's why I couldn't even get a response from the guardian when I tried. Why did Susan (the London hypnotherapist) say people have got the wrong impression of me? MI6 are using money, lies, my abilities and mind control on people, i'm up against the odds indeed. I hope this book gets enough out. I want to write more but you see what I am facing, I want to write about all my good ideas, how I planned for any problems the government may have, all the abilities I came up with, how I use logic to convince people and take on their ideas and how I won all my shrinks over (apart from Paris 'ite' and Paedophile Rapist of course), there is a lot to add, I want to write more about Fuzz also who has had a very hard time and only because I care for her.
A friend on line suggested MI6 will be working with with the USA and the UN, what if by going to america I forced MI6 to do the right thing, maybe america insisted on that, my abilities are going to help so many. But what if some plan for distribution of my abilities is actually happening and I am getting all these Nazi experiments. I know the world needs to adapt to my abilities but as it is now they are being abused probably for money and power under the guise of development of them. I am worried they are trying to make me look naive, a plausible thing to call someone with an ASD, I am fighting for my life,sanity and for the people MI6 mind control, I do not wish to fight by distributing information but I am going through all this. And with paedophile Rapist having used my damn hypnosis on children I need to at least try to change how things are. Even their own agents disagree with what they do, my good shrinks will all be closely controlled in case they tell the truth about me, how I have never been dangerous and only wanted a damn job with my government. OK I want to do things like wipe out schizophrenia and the like but why is this not a good idea and I do understand this is a process and things can't go wrong with something like this. I have put up my own personal distribution plan on my web site but this is too big a decision for one man to make.
I wonder if the brain damage is about covering up who I really am, they type of person I am, not many people know the real me. I had depression and a cannabis addiction from eighteen to twenty two and soon after I got over that all this happens, my life has been a fight for a long time, I can say that about it. Now the damage is having a physical effect I think sawyer is learning how to give people this type of motor related brain damage. By the way I would just like to put a note to Sawyer,Scarlett and their money/power network 'I got my abilities out, I would have died for that one single thing, I've won, you can't stop me now, you can only lash out at your bumbling'. My hypnosis was cracked years ago, you discover all the quantum networks, map them, you alter the EMS and EMA every way you can and apply this to mental illness and neurology ect, it's not that difficult really, I could have had it cracked and I'm not formally educated. All it is is electrical, EM and quantum pathways.
I am getting effects on my speech from the nerve toxin, I think they are doing damage to the occipital lobe and the right cerebellum. I should put a video on here of when they do this damage, I involuntary say 'ja ja ja ja ja ja' for quite some time and I get it worse if I try and speak- I can still think though I cannot talk. They have also put loving reactions in every time I see a dog in the street like they want to turn me into a zooaphile if you can believe that, this is just sick. They are doing all sorts but I do not see why, I always try and do the right thing but I think I'm up against some disturbed people.
'Never sell an inch of your soul; if you sell your soul it's always inch at a time'
Do you know what Paris said- they don't want me to be regarded like fucking Jesus! LOL, me. I have survived things I just shouldn't have a few times but Jesus. People could just meet me and this would be sorted out LOL. First I can't be trusted with women now I'll start a holy war! Dick heads.This paragraph will probably be edited out, it's just their insane game to validate their continuing experiments- making out it is a good thing to brain damage me further (doing brain damage because of brain damage) bumbling Nazis.
I think they might want be doing this because I will stand up for what is right, Sawyer and scarlet have done some sick inhuman things, I can't even protect my children or family and I have a child killer in my mind. All I ever tried to get was a job when I came back from america, to work for my country, I asked for was a working relationship with my government. I didn't mind being controlled, I actually wanted it, I would have worked in an ivory tower. I would gladly forget about all of it apart from the brain damage and sawyers repeated rape, I don't like rapists. This is more about mutilation of a person, they could have me in a lot of pain with hypnosis easily if they wanted. I have to fight for what is right though, they have simply acted like Nazis.
'All it takes for evil to prosper is for good men to stand by and do nothing'
I only want to help people, It's just me, what else could I be?
I will face this as I would want others to, I will be brave.
I will fight. I know Sawyer and his little network will try again.
Paris has changed my lowest ego beliefs now, they are fuzzy and milky and feel wrong, some form of unpleasant happy feeling, it must be to make me more sedate. They continue with the abuse, I feel constantly dopey but it still goes on. Bumbling Nazis to the end eh. They can't stop this blowing up though. I bet they have tied too many people into this in the government. I look at it like a cancer, it starts with me but what happens when the next person going through this goes to the government, and the next, and the next.
I think sawyers is trying to create his own form of nerve disorders. Where both stimulation and suppression have adverse effects. It feels like when stimulated there are a lot of missing neurons so I spasm. When suppressed I can't think because there are not enough neurons. I am scared they will brain damage me to the point people think I should be taken off line. That scares me, I don't know how I would cope offline, I haven't been alone for so long. It would be a dream to be alone with one person but by myself would be horrible. I don't know what state I would be in off line, I would be a cabbage I guess. I'm half way there as it is. I think they will want to convince all my shrinks its better this way. They have been trying to convince me Ripley was in, they keep playing different scenarios. I have wanted to see her for so long, I want to see her but not through a bug, it would take me time to even realise it was her, it is hard to sense my shrinks ambient emotions with the left cerebellum damage. Paris is trying to make me believe I'm stupid now as I write, implanting beliefs about me not being able to write poems like I do. I am not stupid, I'm brain damaged.
It is the 19.12.2012, Paris is trying to break down my personality, they have spiked me with the sodium penathol again, he has tried to change my core belief. When I found this belief in me my whole life just made sense to me.
'I do the right thing' (ref. 37)
This belief is just too an important part of me. Paris has now transplanted Paedophile Rapists ego column in me, the one to do with love and sex at the left, trying to stop me being so loving and caring (though such things have not been a part of my life for some time). He is also trying to make me believe I am a paedophile and to download it into my Id. I am glad this goes too strongly against me, otherwise it would be truly horrid. They keep doing this sinking feeling in my Id to implant things like this, I looked at a child on the TV and they implanted this feeling. I think this is all about covering up who I am as a person. This will be the bumbling Nazi's big plan to write and control history. Just like mind control they will want to over ride the truth. I am glad I have a logical mind, it is hard to fight in the dream like state this drug puts you in. Something has happened though, something good, something that might change things.
It is 27/2/2012 they are swapping quantum neural and body nets between me and Paedophile Rapist, even ones to do with sex, he is becoming obsessed with me. I think Sawyer wants to make my book unpalatable for people to read. I will set an example for others fighting such things, it's people who try who succeed. This experiment is twisted, it surely is a crime against humanity to try swap an Aspergers and paedophiles minds,, they are trying every way to do it, Paris said we will end up like twins. I am strong, I will fight till the end. I think Sawyer wants to try and write this book it seems so I guess it must come to an end here until I am free. I hope you have got a good enough impression from me from reading my book, I hope I come across as bright and caring. He will obviously want my book not to have a happy end, but I will fight for one, at the same time as fighting an implanted paedophile personality disorder, I will fight.
'though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I shall fear no evil'
I have a present for anyone who has had my hypnosis passed onto them. Go to the other world, relax, now look behind your head nearly a foot up and a foot back, you will find something, I left you something there; in case you ever need it. (ref. 40)
Pick your path
It is 12/3/2012 I saw Tony Nicklinson who has locked in syndrome on the Tv again, he still wants to die. I've had enough of this. He needs my abilities, they will give him so much of his life back, he could talk, he could stand, he could go anywhere he imagined, he could touch his wife again, all in the other world but he would be able to. I don't know how people with my hypnosis can sit by and do nothing, I don't know how they can do this. I guess saving him wouldn't make money. I sent a message to his wife but she didn't get back to me and he still wants to die, this is worth a couple of days of my time and a couple of hundred pounds. My abilities are being held back so people can make money, this is bull shit. As soon as I decided to try save him Paris started doing all sorts, he tried to scramble my left cerebellum field and all the bottom of my ego is bright yellow and fuzzy. They are desperately trying to stop me trying to help him. I've said if they give him reality generation and some body nets I will pretend it never happened. He needs help and I will not sit idly by. Paris is desperately trying to change my beliefs. Going through this kind of abuse I keep saying 'you get the beliefs you deserve'. If I succeed I am going to implant a belief of my own, beliefs should be earned.
'I try to save people'
36)A statement by Tolstoy from the novel 'war and peace' showing
37) A quote from the bible the author finds strength from
38) The authors core belief, part of him thinks he should keep this secret, part of him wants people to know of the most basic belief of his mind, a belief that all his other beliefs are based upon. He wishes more people have seen the best of him. With social aspergers this may be the case, few people light them up but when they do they really do.
39) A statement about overcoming wot nots/personality traumas based on the authors own experience of them.
40) A hypnotic secret only people with Damions hypnosis will be able to find, a little piece of the best of him.
41) A belief the author wishes to become a permanent part of his mind.
Copyright © 2012 by Damion M Cappleman